Qeeb's 1st day at School

Qeeb's first day at school which was supposed to be calm jadik chaotic at last minute. Sampai umah tok wan he wanted to eat chocolate cake. Ok, since i don't want him to risk kotoq kan baju skolah, i took it off. When i was about to pakai kan him balik the baju i saw ada chocolate cake bersepai kat lantai. Distractionnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! Time tuh lar the school van arrived.

So kalut nak pakai kan him the shirt, socks and shoes. Luckily he already used to naik van so i just asked him to cecepat naik van because i don't like to keep people waiting. Tak sempat nak hug him and what not. Dah naik van we waited him plak kat rumah Hamzah because tau the van will pickup Hamzah there. Nampak Hamzah pakai tag baru tingat i put everything inside the folder sure Qeeb tak pasan, dang! Tetiba leh imagine aper yang chekgu commented "murid ker bag yang nak pakai tag tuh sbb simpan dalam bag"

Sempat lah waved kat Qeeb yang dalam van time tuh. Then konon nak intercepted kat school gate but dah nak start school dia tak sampai2 lagik. We waited for almost 1 hour there to make sure we did not missed him. Jeeb went to check out at the dewan but having difficulties because the teachers were very strict of allowing the parents to hang out and bersidai kat dewan. Dapat called the school van driver, rupanyer dia dropped off the kids kat gate lain! Whatttt?! Hangen kejap because tak dapat intercept Qeeb nak kluar kan the tag. Plus i don't know whether he really dah ada dalam dewan or not. Redha jelah anggap dia dah masuk because he already familiar with the school compound.

Negative thoughts really drained my energy! Lets focus on positivity cheq oiii! Baru benda kecik jaa (ekceli banyak campor benda lain skali yang tak kene mengene). Tak sempat nak fefeeling anak sulung masuk darjah 1, tak sempat nak amik gambar and tambah sebakul warnings and pesanan.

During his recess time, kitowang jenguk ler nak tgk how he handle process membeli kat canteen, where to sit, etc. He had bekal nasik goreng plus pocket money rm2 dengan pesanan penaja ada balance simpan dalam tabung. He did not want to eat the nasik goreng, instead he bought sosej rm1 and air kotak milo rm2 (i had to top up lagik singgit). So abes trus rm3 on day 1. Besok kita cuba lagik!

These photos were taken during orientation & briefing day.

 While the parents dengar taklimat kat dewan, the kids went to the assigned classes to sit for assessment test.

Selitkan Doa For Them

Yesterday my 5th aunt, Aunty Rose passed away. Her health makin merosot lepas terjatuh kat toilet and kene stroke. Me, sis, other aunts and cousins went to her house to ziarah. May Allah blesss her soul and forgive her sins. Al-Fatihah to aunty Rosnah Abdullah.

Also got some news from friends yang diuji dengan kesihatan. Di hari Jumaat yang barakah dalam bulan Ramadhan nie, let's doakan their health and sembuh dari sakit. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan mereka.

• Anak my friend, Umik was admitted to KPJ and then HKL due to usus complication. His name is Muhammad Luqman bin Ahmad Khairulnizam. Baru buat pembedahan usus untuk kali kedua, kene tebuk dan keluarkan usus which requires at least 3 minggu to heal. Next akan ada pembedahan kali ketiga untuk masukkan semula usus. Hope Mik dan family stay strong and positive. 

• My ex-colleague Hash skang dalam keadaan kritikal disebabkan jangkitan kuman di paru2. Now he's in ICU Hospital Selayang. May he recover dan kembali sehat walafiat. He's a cheerful and friendly person. So sad to hear that he's currently in coma.
  
  Update 20 Jun: Hash took his last breath on Monday. Semoga arwah ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman. 

Semoga pemergian arwah aunty Rose dan Hash di bulan Ramadhan ini menyaksikan bahawa mereka layak mendapat syurga Allah SWT. Kesihatan yang baik itu adalah salah satu nikmat yang paling besar kan? Boleh berjalan, buat kejer, beribadat, layan anak, boleh bercakap dan borak with loved ones etc. Even kita saket perot or pening2 pon dah rasa tak larat nak buat kejer dan terbantot kejer2 lain, inikan pula yang terlantar saket. Self-reminder to be very thankful and syukur dengan rezeki yang ini.

Blonde Moment at Petrol Pump

Terkujat tak habis lagik nie. Aduhaiiii careless nyer macik! Tomorrow the petrol pump owner is going to assess the damage and i really hope it won't cost a bomb. Sigh, it's gonna be an anxious Monday it seems. Or whatever day until they call me up to update the status. I'm praying hard that they won't charge me anything. 

p.s: I hope i won't be in a YouTube too! 

Anxiety Attack

Smalam saya sangat2 emo for no apparent reason. Too busy siapkan presentation slide until the very last minute smp tak sempat makan proper lunch. I had roti and 1 karipap. Then rush pi meeting kat luar which was supposed to start at 3pm. Kuar frm office around 2.30...mistake no. 1 since i'm not familiar with the jalan frm my office. Sampai jalan travers it was a bit jam and then nk masuk jalan damansara ada jam lagik beso! and then i took a wrong turn yang kene lalu kawasan rumah :-/

Dah start drive cam orang giler redah all the bumps. Tiba2 kuar kat area kompleks kerajaan. Jalan becabang2 and im lost tatau nak ikot mana. I randomly pick one skali pusing blk jalan bangsar. Takkan nak rempuh balik jam tadik. So i make u-turn but sama jer jam nyer sbb banyak traffic light. At that time lg 10mins to 3pm...serious rasa cam nak givap pegi sana but unfortunately nobody has the presentation slide except me >.< mistake no. 2 always bagi softcopy + hardcopy to everyone yang attend the meeting. I had to sms my boss cakap im stuck in the traffic. I called cheep because i dunno where im going! Cheep gave some direction and then i saw familiar signboard and jalan macam nak pi taman tasik perdana (sib baik baru je pegi kl bird park so ingat2 lupa).

Rupanyer another big jam waiting for me kat roundabout cinonet tuh dahler matahari terik buat saket kepala. Dari jauh dah nampak landmark...haih so close yet so far. But at least i know im in the right direction, trying to think positive as much as i can. At the same time i tried to fwd the slide to my boss but sana takde internet pulak to retrieve it. Mabuk occay multitasking dalam keta campor anxiety nk cepat sampai + stress.

3.40pm i reached the building and safely found my parking in the basement but i had to take staircase smp lobby because i couldn't find the lift. Mengahhh macik! Sampai bilik meeting, trus masuk sengih2 cam kerang busuk. Gilti gila when i saw my boss had to present pakai whiteboard dolu. My head dah start throbbing and perot dah masuk angin. Tetiba my boss asked pelan2 "do u want to present?" Trus kuar sora kucen "Takpelah....". Thanks to him sbb don't mind to buat the presentation but in my head tgh kira agak2 brapa lah KPI aku kene tolak nie dahler datang meeting lambat >.<

Around 6 i made a move...bayar parking fee yang sangat mahal RM9 only to realize i lost the receipt. So now cannot claim huk huk! Time nak drive balik pon, i made wrong choice pilih jalan. Mistake no. 3, tak visualize dolu where i wanted to go. Padahal ada jalan lain lagik dekat. End up i was stuck in da traffic for 20mins NOT MOVING at all! Giler down yaamatz time tuh sbb rasa cam klutz! I text Cheep cakap nak pi somewhere to chill because i don't feel like talking to anyone if i go back straight. Cheep trus called tanya am i ok? I said x brapa ok...cebik... and lepas tuh....omg trus triak! emo gila dohhh! Sure ada few cars nampak sorang macik pakai baju kurung melalak dalam keta. I knew it im gonna cry if i talked to Cheep, that's why i text him instead. Yang dia plak pi call sbb nak check. Lepas tuh gelak2 kan aku punyer stress level. But lega lah sket lepas tuh besides it's Friday sok tayah pikiaq kejer.

I went to Pyramid after that but i just browsed 1 floor dalam jusco jer because that's the nearest store from car park. Lepas tuh balik sbb dah tatahan pening and kelaparan. Time nak kuar from parking pon salah pilih jalan gak nak exit sampai kene pusing 2 kali :( Memang king klutz lah that day haih!

Moral of the story, jangan biarkan perot kelaparan kot.

Sagittarius says...

"Work demands are of such a nature today that you may feel you have no room to breathe. Knuckle down and work your way through the pile instead of moaning and groaning as the work will still have to be done."

I hate when i have to bawak kejer balik umah becoz i know i can't concentrate and my eyes are too tired to focus on the screen. Besides i don't have much time for myself and cheepster...just like before kawen pon i hardly get to spend time and borak with the rugrats. And now i still have to balik lmbt...wpon tak selambat dolu but the long distance driving left me only 2-3 hours before i have to hit the bed. Dahler takleh tidoq lambat sangat sbb takot the next morning liat nak bangun.

This is nothing new ekceli. Since i start working in P*B, this is like a routine but time tuh work and leisure. But skang aku bebal gila sbb bebaru nie one of the boss jadik pushy, i know she just wants to get things moving but she can be a real killjoy most of the time. Kejer bagai nak rak, still kene sarcastic remarks. I can handle multi task but if multi deadline which falls on the same date mati lar. Tadik pon dia bagi kejer kol 12 lebey soh siapkan by 2.30pm. So kiranya takleh gi lunch lah kan....dah siap doc tu trus gi present kat client. Abes meeting around 5.30 aku tgh makan koay tiaw yang pesan kat D tgh ari tadik, dah kene tanya what's the outcome and biler nak finalize kan that doc. Blerghh!! 8.30pm nak balik kene tahan, tanya what time aku nak tunjuk dia tomorrow morning. When i said 10am, dia kater lewat sangat. Wadahel lahhh!

Skang environment kejer pon dah takbes...sumer tense cam zaman nak start UAT dolu. In fact today aku tak borak sangat ngan D pon. Ingat nak ler tgk gambar2 dia gi choti kat Sarawak. Even lunch pon aku tak dapat join. Mana tak bebal?? And now here i am tantrum nak wat kijer depan laptop sbb running out of time tapik pegi ranting kat blog plak. hak hak...at least membebel kat sini tayah kene pikir cam wat kijer.

The work endlessly drives madness to its limits! How?!

Jinyx on 20.08.2008

20.08.2008 is a cool date eh? but what happened this morning wasn't cool at all. I woke up late with stomach ache and pms. Sms few potential colleagues who arrives early in the opis nak mintak tolong tagkan because today is my turn to tag but each reply is a disappointment. Drag myself to shower and time tgh siap tuh on my ym in case ada orang yang dah online. yes! 1 practical trainee is online. deal punyer deal siap mintak frap lah bagai and by the time dia tag dah 8.17. arghhh lambat 2 min! sigh but xpe i'll still buy him a frap because dia banyak tolon jawab tepon (update: he don't even say thanks after he got his frap?!)

So when i hit the road masuk jln tun razak the big jam starts. and time tuh lar suddenly saket perot gila2. sampai bepeluh2 meremang2 bulu roma tahan saket....stress stress! rasa cam nak tinggal jer keta lari gi mana2 nearest toilet. sampai jer darby p*rk, k.moji called tanya kat mana because tada orang yang standby helpdesk and the user dah bising2...sian k.moji. adoihhlahhh! sure bebudak tuh gi bekpes berjemaah. She asked me how to clear the ID but dengan tangan sblah pusing stereng naik tingkat 7, and perot tgh mulas2 i really cant concentrate. my focus is toilet!

lepas letak tepon and parked, time tgh tunggu lif ede plak called. she said dia stucked in the traffic jam and asked me to conduct the training. wahhhh tambah stress! but halfway cakap i was disconnected because i was in the lift...well u know DiGi. i know she will call me back but i need to go to toilet firstttt then i can think about everything else. so time tgh proses nak kosongkan perot tuh she called me few times. fuhhh mmg tak tenang...nak yak pon stress!

masuk opis jer trus gi collect all the stuff and masuk training room. laptop lak kat ede so i had to pakai pc dalam training room tuh. cucuk punyer cucuk skali projector takleh connect. grrrrrr....dahler tgh pms nak kene tunduk2 bawah meja plak serious tensen. tetiba ede masuk with her laptop...lega trus aku connect the projector to her laptop. tapik nak panjangkan lagik citer projector tuh punyer lampu tetiba plak blowed. turun lah aku tekedek2 gi floor lain carik projector extra and pasang. ede pon cam tensen smacam sbb ada notes dia tak bawak. she said she put on my table but i have no idea where she put it because i've passed it to her last week.

So basically dats what happened this morning. It's one of the days when everything goes wrong.

i am annoyed talkin to MYJ. Period. I know its bad to make this kind of statement. But i am annoyed! A user logged a report and i need to clarify few things with the vendor first and tak sempat vendor nak pegang keyboard dia dah made fuss kat MYJ. so MYJ siap called soh aku naik tingkat atas and bla bla bla. kalut gila lah mamat neh just because user tuh called him personally dia soh aku pay attention to dat particular problem. as if she's the only one yang called dalam masa stgh jam tuh, dohhh!! Aku dah cukup hangen ngan user tuh but he really sembur gas to my fire. and im still annoyed. dot.

If Bapak still around...

A year has past the day Bapak left us 16 April 2007. I still remember the details when my sis called me soh balik cepat, calling zet screaming and crying in panic, broke down next to him in the emergency room when the doc said they've tried their best. Feels like yesterday.

If Bapak still around...He would be the first person to wake up. Brew his coffee. Walk Adly and Didi to bus stop or drive them to school if they missed the bus hehe. Trim pokok and water his plants. By the time i'm going out for work, he would be sitting at his favourite spot smoking and watch his fishes grow bigger. Send me to LRT. Salam and cium tangan before kuar keta. Pick me up from LRT. Quick chat in the car. Having dinner and watch TV together. Listen to his jokes and famous tall tale to Adly, Didi and Lily even to me and my sis :) The smell of balm/ minyak angin when he's ready to sleep.

How i really miss that. I really really missed him. Al-Fatihah.